Torn

After some time of serious thinking, pondering, crying, screaming, pulling my hair out and pretty much just sulking; I have realized I am not 100% happy with my career choice.  Don't get me wrong here, I do love being self employed; however, not like this!

Bookkeeping in all honesty is quite boring to me.  When I quit my job as a bookkeeper I immediately went into damage control by deciding "I can do this on my own, eff you ex boss!" and I know that I can do it.  But it doesn't peak my interest enough to stay motivated and BE on top of it all. As a matter of fact, I found myself withdrawing as much as possible from doing it.  So that being said, I realized that bookkeeping isn't for me.

So what do I do now? Well, I went from having five jobs and no time for me, to having two jobs and peace of mind.  But I am very restless.  I started throwing around ideas of getting into Real Estate (which I am still considering).  But now, I have been looking on Job Bank and am finding opportunities to get back into marketing - my love!  I recently applied for 3 marketing positions and am waiting to hear back.  If that doesn't work out for me, I think I may just consider a career in Real Estate.  The idea of selling houses isn't the best in my mind just yet, however, I am looking forward to being self employed and being able to manage my own little business that I get to market and advertise the way I see fit.  The reward will be in the work itself.

I am quite a personable individual and am trying to find my place in this world.  I think once this summer is over with, Ill finally have a better idea of where life is taking me.  I need some sort of stability and routine (as much as we all dread it).  I am realizing more and more that indecisiveness gets you nowhere.  It's time I take a stand and finally decide what Lisa Leduc is all about and where she is heading in life.

Stay tuned and Ill keep you posted on my chosen career path as I slowly dig my way through this fog in my head and find myself an answer. :)